All About Ashley..A southern chick's story: Being an Adult

All About Ashley..A southern chick's story: Being an Adult: "I'm 25 years old, I'll be 26 in August and even though I do adult things and have for years I sometimes think when did I become an adult. Wh..."

Being an Adult

I'm 25 years old, I'll be 26 in August and even though I do adult things and have for years I sometimes think when did I become an adult. When did I make that cross over from kid to adult. Even when your a teenager you think in your head that your an adult but your not, you may do some things that are adult like, you have responsibilities but your not really an adult. You think you have adult problems but you really don't. Now some people do have to grow up fast, when you have a child young or you quit school and then have to fend for your self you have to be an adult before you should be. I didn't have a child young,  I didn't quit school and I didn't have to be an adult at 16, 17 or even 18. However because I had to work at 16 and my parents didn't make much money so if I wanted something like a car or extra clothing or to go out on weekends I worked and earned my money. I also wanted to be an adult because I met new people at my job, people who were out of school and had there own place and did what they wanted to and thats what I wanted. I was older than most of my class mates. So I moved out at 17 and lived with older people. I liked being able to do whatever I wanted to. I worked hard and made money. I went to school, then went to work and then I partied. I was thinking I was an adult because I had this freedom but I was acting like a kid. I did this for a while and after I graduated I just worked more and I paid my bills but instead of saving money I spent what I had left, I bought drugs, or clothes, went out to eat, bought things for my car whatever I wanted if I had the money I bought it. Then one day I realized I didn't want it anymore. I was addicted to drugs, no longer had my own place so I moved back home. I  got sober and was doing good. Then I lost my job 2 weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I was so scared, I wanted to curl up in my Mom's arms and for her to make it all better, but I knew that wouldn't happen. I love my daughter and I love my life but I sometimes wonder when did I become an adult. It just trips me out that I'm 25, I have a kid, I'm about to get married. It's crazy isn't it. Am I the only one who thinks that way? Although I miss being a kid and I love looking back on my childhood and my teenage years but I look forward to being an adult and being a Mom and a wife. It scares the hell outta me but hell anything thats a challenge is gonna scare ya alittle right? I'm not where I would have like to be at 25 and I'm gonna have to work really hard to have the life I want but I will. Having a kid makes you very driven, even more than I used to be. I guess I just wanted to write this blog to let other's like me know that being an adult is sometimes scaring and you sometimes wonder when the hell did I become an adult, it's not that bad...you just have realize that just because your an adult doesn't mean the fun ends..it's just a different kind of fun :)